I feel as though i have put myself out-there with this certain indivdual and each time my hopes come crashing down. No matter how strongly i believe that there are feelings that are mutual between us, it just doesn't happen. And for me, i have never been this certain before... how could my instincts be so wrong?

We got the closest we've ever been a few nights ago, and i thought about having a casual relationship with this indivdual i thought it was gonna be one of those things which went
withouth saying it. no such luck.

I got this poem in our whole mess tho:

3. To disappoint the hopes or expectations of;

Not too long ago, on a cold night our bodies lay warm
In the heat of the moment, my search led to you
And as minutes accumulate into hours
Passion prevails, I’m lost in fantasy tonight

I’ve had lots of practice, so I know all the right words
To embed in my responses, and intensify our dialogue
By telling you all that you’ve ever wanted to hear
I filled your heart with a heavy feeling

Oh darling, I’m the predator and you’re the prey
…you never had a chance

And you don’t have to tell me, I already know…
My sincerest of apologies are falling short
Your silence is speaking that much

Although, I wished not to shed any tears
I can tell, I’ve done something worse
Just know, you’re not a fool…
I am
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i always make up reasons in my head to justify the actions of others. For this; he must've only did what he did because he knew it would be the only time he could get it because of the current relationship he is in. i told him that i hate how he's happy. i'm a horrible person.